Your Skin Is Beautiful
Written By: Clyrese Minor
I chose this title, because I think every young girl and woman should believe her skin is beautiful. Not only believe it, but also embrace it. It took me 25 years to come to this realization. I had battled with depression and low self-esteem since I was eight years old. I never thought I was good enough to “be or do” anything, because I was told I wasn’t smart or worthy enough. However, this was not instilled by my mother. She “was and is” an absolutely, wonderful mother and grandmother. I began early on thinking this way, because of my father’s absence. I felt if I wasn’t good enough for my dad to want to stay around me then I would never be “good enough”. As I grew older, I began changing who I was so that people would like me. I began altering my personality to act like everyone else. I began doing things I didn’t want to do, and behaving like everyone else because I wanted friends. I thrived on being accepted. I became a people pleaser. Of course, this did not work. I was miserable on the inside and the outside. My mother would always tell me that I needed to stop being a follower and be who I am, a leader. At that time I didn’t know what she was talking about. I started to think she was against me too. So, I became rebellious. After high school, my friends and I went our separate ways. All of those people who called themselves “my friends” disappeared, and it wasn’t because they went off to college.
Sometimes God has to put you in a place of refuge to remove some people from your life, in order for him to get you where he needs you to be. It’s easier to believe the negative things people say about us and difficult to accept the positive. When someone told me I was pretty, I turned him or her away. When someone showed they believed in me, I called him or her crazy. One day I became severely depressed and started having suicidal thoughts. I then fell to my knees crying and praying. I prayed to be released from the bondage of depression. Prayer is what brought me out of this state of mind. I knew that death at age 21 was not God’s ordained purpose for me. Psalms 139:14 is one of my favorite verses. It says, “I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.” How can God create someone in His own image only to turn out such a terrible creation? This is not what he says in His word (Genesis 1:27). God is not a dishonest God (Numbers 23:19). So, I began to apply these scriptures to encourage and improve upon myself.
I started doing things which allowed me to change my mind set of what and who Clyrese is, a human being who is a woman. I began telling myself every morning that I am a beautiful person inside and out. I started to care about my appearance by just caring. I surrounded myself with uplifting people, and forced myself to trust the positive rather than the negative characteristics about me. NOW when I smile, the whole world smiles back at me! Now at 31 years old, I own a business, Financial Bondage Broken LLC. I have a wonderful husband and son. I believe I can do anything through Christ who strengthens me (Philippians 4:13).